yampey is awesome ( before and after )

2009-06-06T22:49:00.001-07:00

has been a long time...im not here .
well..i know its not appropriate to pour out all my thoughts here but im sorry this is the only way
for me to release everything that were kept in my heart ...
i was the one who ask for --- ....and he agreed ... do u want to know why i ask for ---?its...well...cz i have a feeling ... a very accurate feeling that he has fallen for someone else after ns..after he went to his college...dont ask me how i got this feeling?this is called sixthsense...
i have it .know what...i thought to change to become a good girl for him.just for him.
i meant i swear not to cheat on him anymore.not to lie to him anymore.well...i did not.
but its funny huh?
i changed for him,and he changed for me too =/
his love,for me,less...slowly...no more.
he told me this ...he did.
i remembered the last time we sms,the last time we talked on phone.
the last time we said i love you ,and the last time we shared feelings.
its on 2nd May ,2009.we---under agreement?and promised not to cry,he said i will cry.haha...he was wrong..i did not cry..but..wait...i drop tears??(after 1 week... )
well..i was having my mid term exam..so i guess mid term results will not be that good.this is the part i hate bout relationships...the story begun with ....nice ,sweet starting ...and story end with tears...this only happened to me when i love that person so much and that person hurts me badly...the maximum hurt.
luckily...i'm strong enough to cope with this.and i believe the pain i felt inside will get lesser each day..(to be honest,i did drop my tears ,why wouldnt I?).and so now here I am...
sitting infront of the computer,and you are reading my thoghts i wrote here ...
1 month already.i proof to myself im an independent girl. ;)
i dont let myself down just for the people who dont loves me anymore ;)
i get over him easily ;)
whoever is she , i only hope we are still friends . as simple as that .
just go for her now.you are free ..ME TOO !

2009-05-13T23:56:00.000-07:00

a simple thing here for you bibi..
miss you...............

2009-05-13T23:49:00.001-07:00

Heh, not again
Ohh, this ain't supposed to happen to me

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Tell me now can you make it past your Caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'

We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick, hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes

Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice, OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa, it's me, baby this is tragic
'Cause we had it, we was magic

I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

2009-04-30T02:20:00.000-07:00

they knew each other for quite a long time already and they've been friends for quite some time..
they're not very close until they really know each other now..
somehow..i dont know how they get closer and closer each day and finally since when..develop feelings for each other..she keep asking me why ..why ..he fell for him..or?jz some flings..
pls tell her no.and she is just too confused..does he feels the same way for her too?..she cant tell you she hope the ans is yes..or no.cz she is confused.with him.he acted so weird.so..what the girl does is,just keep singing the song love story without telling him how she felf for him all the time..
just let it be girl..

2009-04-30T02:16:00.000-07:00

was chit chatting with frens and laughing all the way..Everything was fine,untill i accidentally look at the place we used to hang out...See-ing, you brings back my sad memories and meeting you was by FATE. Never thought it will hurt this bad.

The hardest part about walking AWAY from you is knowing,you wont run after me.Many things were running through my mind that very minute, but just because I smile doesn't mean that i am happy because it takes one smile to cover a million tears.
we're just beside each other..but why?
u still dont know im in love with you

2008-12-30T23:00:00.000-08:00

well..this will be the last post for this yr..or maybe this blog..
cz i dun feel like on9 anymore..
evrytime i on9..and i cnt control myself to see that person ..profile..blog..and pictures..
n the things tt person wrote..
then it hurts me vry much..
this is nt my problem anyway..im nt sad or anythng..
jz felt like.
hey...U r jz nothing in this world..you can meant so much to other ppl but not me lol..
haha.
well..gd luck evryone for your 2009 spm..dun stress out..
mz play more lol..
bye....

2008-11-30T20:11:00.000-08:00

outfit for dinner with william's and ang yen..family..but many
family members not there..sighs..havent cum back from overseas..
(actually this pic took it for fun la)

when the lights were off..

waaahhh...nice..
looks like the clover love i wanted for a long time ago..

attend a wedding dinner.william maked it into CLOVER!!
so nice...waaaahhh...
(im arranging lah..)

he taught me how to fold...nice leehh..

hairstylist lao po..actually i finished cutting hair dy but
im addicted to the tv show so i jz watch only go..)

finished dy...before this..the hairstylist asked me whether my hair its
perm or natural..like tt oso dunno a...blek!

outfit to attend the wedding dinner..

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common hokkien words u've learn today:
sien.. syiok.. ban san.. pai seh... O.. AKai..

I promised myself.....
1st) control myself,not to eat too much.(okay!good job!)
2nd) MUst exercise more(will you?)
3rd) stop hol mood,SPM nxt year(yala yala..)
4th) last but not least,must grow taller(can a?hope so..)

let;s talk about friday..

2008-11-30T19:48:00.002-08:00

the most exciting day was friday...and maybe my worst comes from exciting...william
taught me addmath...he asked me:how much you got for your addmath?I looked at him..
and smiled+blushed..er..haha...9G...he asked..har..?fail a?hmm...i tot u sat addmath vry easy wan?
hiah..damn paiseh..i shud not say that in the first place.but pity him jz finished SPM still nid
to teach me ..sry o....we did AM for 3 hours...then he asked me..tired dy a?i replied..hrggg..
yea...look at him with a tired face..but then he a..no sense of pity-ness...he told me the most
suitable time to study sej was 8pm..then I quickly asked him how bout add maths?I thoght
you only be able to do add math in a fresh mind..and calm mind..i think he knows my akai dy
..so he said hmm...add math can do ANYTIME... =.=" ..aiyo do la...talk so much..
(eh..who started the topic wan ah???)
then do lo...and he sadi tui fees 80$ yaa...haha..i shoot him ...wah 80$ too little lah..
how bout 100$?..he say okay a can also.(but then im jz talking nuts..i nvr give,i ran away with
the money!!)LOL... =) then his mom..make buns for us ..yummy...vry nice..lemon juice and onion
to cover the smell of tuna...I ate two..but not enuff.. :(

at night,after dinner.

look..william's quick silver slipper..
mom say i wear his slipper like sitting in a big boat..
(i vry short meh.. hmp.!)
so huuuuuuge!!*winkz*

language said by kedah ppl..hokkien..

2008-11-30T19:14:00.000-08:00

phew..came back from as finally ..damn sien but not so sien..
dunno how to say lh..evry morning woke up at 7..mom lah..knock my door evry morning..gal a..wake up ady ...going to eat dim sum with tua ku la...luk sim la..and all sorts realtives la..mafan..evryday oso got activities wor!!wth..my black PANDA came out dy...so biiigggg...so huuugggeeee ..very serious dy!!must call doctor dy.. =.=
haih..

see?sigh...thats why when i came back from as..all i did was just
sleep...sleep..sleep..sleep at 10pm wake up at 10 am.

owh yeah..wneh i took this picture..ppl outside there was
like huh..?why this gal syiok sendiri wan?keep smiling
..erghh..dun care lah..not like im gonna meet those ppl agn.
so continue!

------random saying:the whisky very nice..I like..
but of course i mix with something lah...thats y i slept well yesterday..i have sleeping disorder um maybe.back pain..lol.old ppl dy lo..

on monday..we arrived at ang yen hse...I sat there for the whole 5 hours...eat lunch and watch tv and read newspapers..
im so curious wbout what is happening outside the world..so for the 1st time i read newspapers..if not,i would rather
listen to dad's 'news'.this isnt a hols ryt?is this conseidered?hols supposed to do stuff that you loved ..!!
like shoppong for girls...cinema..clubbing..bi dun like me to go..so cross out.and tuned the music
to the max vol..syiok..watv lah...then tuesday to thursday do the same old thing..slept at 12pm,woke up at 7 am.go eat breakfast,and its always dim sum...dim sum...erghh...yalayala...dun ask me to eat
dim sum agn..then teman mom go 'ban san' fing ketupat for her stuff..they asked mom to buy them triangle ketupat...only keday have it.then she go around to try every store ketupat(of course
pay money 1st lh..NO money..NO talk =)...and sheh..choosy lah..this one..nt nice....er..not soft enuff..
too hard!...nt so gd..nt fresh..the jagung in there differ taste..NO,...no...THis NO..that NO...no..
3 days to find ketupat ..erghh...and yaaaaaaayyyyy...she found ketupat tt suits her!!and she ordered..20 ketupat from this chinese store...and 40 ketupat from malay store..and she bought dol dol..
1 kg..so heaaaavy lh..i cary mah of course heavy lah..but nvm..lol..
and id like those teen gals teen guys there...wear so many colours of shirts and pants for what..
ban lala meh...what la..they like B****.nvm.ignore that.dun like em la..

yap say he nvr cut the hair short wor..i think got la..
wait..i think i grown fat dy..how...

2008-11-21T21:32:00.000-08:00

ahhhh...after 1st dec only can see my besties!!..
they say vry boring at JB..so they call me cz they miss me!!
i know you miss me la yun..yin..
dun deny..haha.
owh.n rmb wat i told ya all ya..budget??
okiz..i knw you understand..
and haiz..my pictures so not nice la..all the pictures tt yu
put up on ur blog...damnit.
my back pain agn...so i shud stop here..tata.oh,i had a..dunno gd news or bad news la..
tt skul full dy so cnt accept anymore students..so im STUCK at BU4 agn!!aikz..i
dun reli like it,...gd tt i have fate with bu4..bad tt i still nid to stuck there
and see her pig face..stp doraemoN!!!ish...shrek oso cuter than her la!!pig face,
and stay there to let ppl to hate me a...haih nvm la.can take care of jy ..
.before this,jy come out with lots of lots ot reesons to stop me from transferring..
and us dun wanns drop class too..who wants la..know jooyi sure stay wan la.only me the one..drop..i nt stupid la,i still have a brain..jz tt i nvr used it tt often only..enuff dy la.cheerio
loves.

2008-11-21T21:15:00.000-08:00

Ooooo.....
i had bad dreams AGN yesterday...stupid stupid...hate bad dreams!!!
i think i woke up bout4 something or 5 and sent a sms to him..haha
and he woke up at 9 something to reply me..
oohh..whats wrong..what had happened..
so...slow??...
ahh...today im damn tired...yesterday whole day with him..
walk walk walk..with his mum too.
haha..so hungry then v ate auntie annes at bangsar village..
and er he so greedy!!like a pig..no wonder he is still gaining weight on his..hahah
you shud loose weight cz of smp but not GAIN weight??
too stress issit...bt i ady help you release some stress la...lol.
i help to...comfort you only la.
yesterday i had a lot of fin.really.
and you know what..jooyi called me up yesterday nite...and she asked me whether i wanna hear good news or
bad news 1st..i say bad 1 st la.she says she cnt go bangsar tmr which is today la..shitty gal..no la lol/
the gd news is.......secret!!
but i really really happy for her!!aikz.
what a coincidence me and jooyi were at the same shooping mall during 5 pm but we dont have the
fate to met each other...sighs..and i can imagina how funny when me and jy met each other yesterday!!
she was wearing the same black shirt like mine...at that day...
i can still picture how jooyi's(-) and him laugh..
aahh...i miss jooyi.....

2008-11-11T22:42:00.000-08:00

bibi say i evil..dun wanna let him eat..but im not evil hor..

this is a gal..female..not male..

in pavillion..did i took it ?myself?

i like it.

2008-11-11T22:29:00.000-08:00

hey..jz over skul..
well..last day of skul ..
duno whether is my last day of skul this yr or in smkbud4?
im not sure whether is happy feeling or sad or bu she de??
aaa...dun ask..
i dunno.
owh..
i went ou with jy and buy aunty anne's and cinnabon..
for michael jackson?and bibi.
wahh...this is my ffirst time to buy stuff just for the sake of my lover leh..
i dont do tt last time..cz..aiya lazy la.
today is the 2nd day of spm ..wish you all best of luck!!
haha.only to allthe ppl i care of ..
;)
erm..ya when i arrive home..i didnt go in immediately i just take the house key from
kakak and went for a walk ALONE.
wah...so nice and still nice.
owh..i walk one big round and then back to my house agn..and when i look up the blue sky..
the yellow leaves falls down...to me?
as if im in the show..the actress?
its nice la.lazy to write dy.
erm bibi,i miss you .jz dun think too much..after more stress how.
owh do u like sour cream flavor?
issi nice.and im supposed to give you the ice coffee today but im afraid you doesnt like it
so i asked you to try some..wah..after you tried..you pfft..euk..bitter hor.
its 5 dollars..so i drink myself..but its okayy..nxt time i know i buy you other flavor k.
and luckily jy oso nvr give michael haha.otherwish...O O..

2008-11-06T02:35:00.000-08:00

haha.im getting crazy today..
cz my stp exam jz over...
stupid memory card spoilt..cnt upload photos..
damn potong lo.
and tonight going for phy tui at 8..
haiz dun feel like going lh..
lame lame lame...
hey..got sumthing to tell you..
i miss something...
its secret dun tell !
^^
and i wanna create a new music player...
the stupid net is like playing a fool with me..
can view the page dy then suddenly stop..
so bei gui gian!!!
wth.
i jz rmbrd sumthng.
bibi and me gonna watch HSM 3..
cool la.
it suits us..
prom night..
ah!!
i havent bought my dress..
sadly,i dun even know my waist size...and my hips size..
i jz know boobs?
haha.k.calm down.

erghh...still so slow..ent is running slow...and i miss pictures..
aaa...i dunno wat to wear on sunday...tube?pink clr?mini skirt?
nonono..dunno la..
a random thing here..im currently listening to a song form rihanna..
and my stp ass bro keep playing his football in the comp room!!
keep hurting me...the football hits me..but haha..im such a gd sister..
i didnt scold him nor halau him out of the comp room cz he went himself..
is this nice for dress?
or

or
this??

joo,this green dress is what im saying..

2008-11-06T02:15:00.000-08:00

hey,jz finished all my important subjects.
left only tmr's sivic and the lame pj ?
oh well...
my phy was NOT good.BIO too!
i can tell u now im not going to score for my science sub!
its hard for me..
k maybe not hard..i lazy to read all the facts..
ok wait monday and wednesady me joo yin yun going to skul wow.
and tmr im gonna date my bibi...v gonna go the curve..dunno watch what show
he bought the ticket.
haha..being a gal is not bad tho..get the bf to pay huh?
well,i aint tt bad,i wl still help him save money.
im a gd gf.dont u think so,bibi?
lol.okay.sunday i have an outing with janice..erm dunno crystal going or not.
hope she is going cz i nid to ask her bout seri hartamas stuff..
haha.damn damn damn.
im having serious gastric now..but weird huh i dun wanna eat?
shit me la.
i have an bad news here..my fren jz broke up yesterday..
i was so damn freakin shockin when she told me tt..
what a guy..lol.
this kind of guy is real not worth it la.
oh well..have lots of stupid lame crazy conv with joo today..
she often say im dumb ..
stupi-der than the chinese show a gal called xiang qing in er juo ju zi wen..
am i tt stupid??
well..i still love joo anyway haha.

P.S yun yin joo!!!faster la,i wanna go bangsar!!!love ya lots!

to kylie

2008-10-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

kylie..continue reading..
I should take your words and advice at the 1st place.
If i'd take your advice earlier,we will still be like last time.
we wont became like this..
i really miss those times,i really really hope we could pour out problems and share.
but it seems..we're different..you said.
You told me not to say sorry if i dont mean it.
and after months..i realize.you were right.
pls accept my apology.
pls dont be offended for the things i've said .I..
I..cant do anything anymore to compensate ..

And yea a cousin,a friend.
we'll remain like that.
no matter what,i justhope you'll be happy with your life and everthing.
BestOfLuck in your SPM !
pey.

my friendships

2008-10-27T23:31:00.000-07:00

hey,gal..
I wonder did i pass your test for friends?
I try to read your eyes,
surmise,
just what you think behind that brow.
As you nod,
are you thinking that im odd?

you seem not to be impressed
at what you see;
I am a nonentity?
You're in a hurry to forget,
what made me second class?
I see I didnt pass the standards you have set.
for friends.

Our story ends.
its your loss to loose me as a friend,
I will still go on my life without you.
I still can live without you.go ahead with your life.dont worry.our memories will stay alive in my heart and mind.